I find that writing can, at times, be a chore.
You read it right.
Sometimes I don’t want to write.
Is this a bad thing?
I’ve been feeling especially unmotivated these last few weeks because of the loss of my dissertation and various other factors. My apathy leads me to writing lists, so here is a list of thoughts running through my head:
- I can’t be bothered.
- My dissertation is gone.
- I don’t have time.
- I’m too tired.
- There’s too much; I’m overwhelmed.
- It’s really gone.
- It’s too uncomfortable to write.
- What’s the point?
- Nothing inspires me.
- I don’t feel like it.
So this week I’ve been doing other things. Here’s another list:
- Watching television (Teen Wolf and Being Human are the current favourites).
- Watching movies (my sister and I are re-discovering the joys of weekly movie hire).
- Reading. (You know those crazy people who stand on the train platform with their head in a book yet still manage to get on the crowded peak hour train and score a seat? Yeap, that’s me!)
- Not writing.
- Being a tad miserable.
- Glaring at my laptop and wishing
I didn’t hate it so muchmy workspace was actually comfortable.
I am completely unmotivated. And I feel like the more I wallow, the deeper my rut of unmotivation becomes. Is there a point? Why do I write (or, as we see here, not write)? The few times I’ve thought about my dissertation have resulted in slight panic attacks and tears. The few times I’ve thought of writing anything for myself on a creative level have resulted in self-doubt and fury at my inability as a writer.
How do you motivate the unmotivated?
What is a writer who doesn’t write?